wow.. this year end so many things happened... i really dunno where to start from loh..
last week i was enjoying my x'mas eve until 1 plus.. then the shouting and walking away drama happened... hai why like that.... i really dunno wad to do...

and guess wad my straight male friends suspecting that im gay le.. i really dunno how... and i confirm got to tell them before they even ask me.. and im very scared... coz i dont want to lose them...

i need friends
i treasure friends
friends are like body parts of me..
i cant live without them..
i cant lose them..
i will die...

after so much saying if the cant take me who i am.. i guess i will have to leave them... and start my life from nothing in 2009...

i guess seriously im still to young for relationship... because

i need someone to take care of me
someone to teach me
someone to think for me..
someone the i can share my life with...

but currently i think i better dont think so much le.... wad is mine will be mine one day...

and i just wanna tell my friends i love you guys.. because your are like my brothers and sisters supporting me all the time...

this song is for you guys.. [ YOU RAISE ME UP]
it is simple.. but powerful and meaningful

LYRICS---
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit a while with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be.

7:14 PM hai so wad now? hmmm.. last saturday finally meet up with er ge.. kel... royston.. and many others.. was with my current date.. so was drinking outside the seven-eleven.. so as usual the bitching and laughing part beings..

so talk talk talk until me and my date... they were saying about the age gap... hai i just dunno wad to do... thinking that it will be nice to meet up again but why they just bring up the age thingy... i know it myself...

i know im only 18... a age where ppl wont take you serious but i just wanna be normal... hai.. even after that henry also didnt say anything.. i dunno wad i really should do... hai........

i dont get any support...